A Disease!

Daily writing prompt

If you could have something named after you, what would it be?

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I may be a little cynnical, but my view of myself right now is that I am more of a plague on the existence of other people. Certainly some people think that I am a blessing to them and their lives, but I feel like when I try to spend time with others and do something nice for them I never do enough or well enough. I feel like I can’t be what I am supposed to be. Society tells me that I am a white middle aged male and should be successful, have the perfect marriage, and go buy a porsche. I don’t have money to feed myself, the woman I found when I was 30 to marry left me being changed by her own confabulations, and I don’t even own the car I drive. Forget a mid-life crisis, I can’t afford to live, and I hear of people claiming that white males are priveleged? Ha!!! I am trying to find a job, but it has taken me over 6 months to find a job every time I have had to start the hunt. I am still looking going on 8… I usually do over 100,000 job applications every time to try and find work. That includes applying to Chick-Fil-A, Safeway, Target, and many other well known businesses. In fact I know what disease should be named after me… When you have gone through a tormentuous cycle of being kicked while you are down, and you know that you have to do way more work than everybody else to have a chance to do what they find easily it’s a case of the Mundy’s. I mean like imagine fighting your worst day of pain, to have your mother demand money from you, to go to a job interview where they reject you, and you come home to an empty refrigerator, then you work on a car that something else breaks on daily, then go to church alone, to have the people that you need to reassure you walk away, and feel completely unseen. Add to that getting calls about money that you can’t pay, and that’s something that could happen to anyone, but really often happens to me.